This is us!

It only took us five years, maybe a hair more, to tie the knot. Saying it that way seems so impatient, and honestly, I was! I knew from the moment I met my husband way back in 2008 that I would marry him. The time wasn't right then for us to be together. Two years later we came together again and have been going strong ever since.

Now that we've made things official, everything is speeding along to build a little family. I've always wanted to be a mother. I was one of those girls who loved babies, loved her dolls, and couldn't wait to have her very own babies. I've daydreamed about what I would name my future children for years. I kept waiting for that man to come around, and in the mean time focused on my career. I spent my twenties going to school for nursing and completed two degrees. I was 29 when my husband and I began dating... the biological clock was already ticking.

As we started our relationship, since we had met before, I knew my husband had children. I was always worried about dating a man with children. How accepting would the children be? How stressful would it be dealing with their mother? What kind of role am I to play? The truth is, nothing prepares you and every circumstance is different. I consider myself so lucky that the girls embraced me with open arms. There is a huge age range; currently 17 to 7, and two different mothers with very different attitudes. I'm sure I'll cover this topic again (and again and again...) but I do want to say for now that I am incredibly lucky that the girls embraced me with open arms. What could have been difficult was less because of a bond that built love between me and the girls very easily.

I knew from the start my husband had a vasectomy shortly after the birth of his youngest daughter. It was heartbreang to me. We talked back and forth for literally years on what, if anything, we should do... Do I give up my desire to have a child? Do we end our relationship? Do we pursue a reversal? Do we pursue another option to raise a child together like using donor sperm or adoption? We did talk a lot about the last, but considering he has biological children, he didn't want our child to feel different. So we decided upon a reversal.

That brings us to now. We're currently finding a doctor, scheduling, and figuring out what we'll tell everyone. Welcome to our journey to making a baby!